Looking ahead to funner things
Ok, so I admit I had the surgery the week I did (rather than the following week) partially so I would be a smidge more healed in time for the Nada Surf shows later this year. (We have tickets to see them in Chicago and Minneapolis after Thanksgiving.) Though a larger part of that decision was just to have it over with and not agonize about what's to come, losing sleep and such. But a small factor was how quickly I'd bounce back to see Nada Surf.
I think this is the only time in my life I'm relieved they're playing so few Midwestern shows. Otherwise we'd have tickets to see them in a number of cities, and I know I'm not going to be up for that. Rob and I are already unsure about the MN show. I should be able to do the Metro - it's close, and it's a familiar place. I'm also glad the shows are so late in the season. When these shows were announced, I never thought November would come! Now, I can't believe it's already November 4, and hope the days drag slowly and I recover quickly so we can go and have a good time. I will be sober though - bummer no booze on Norco.
My hearing has changed since the surgery - I hope it's not permanent! I hear weird echos and high pitched sounds (from kids screaming to my own voice) sound even more shrill. But I also hear music differently. Not bad different, either. I can't really explain it. So a show will be interesting.
Do most people always have a song running through their head? I think I do about 50% of the time. But when I was in the hospital, I think I had a handful of songs that were running over and over for weeks:
Weezer (Holiday, Heart Songs),
Nada Surf (Pressure Free, Spooky, & 80 Windows [which was weird since I didn't used to like that song and now I love it]),
and Local H (PJ Soles).
So I'm trying to look forward to happier things to come instead of dwelling on my tumor since that just bums me out. Rob and I were supposed to see a bunch of other shows this month that we're skipping now, poo, but he's still going to Smashing Pumpkins (at least I really want him to go - I'd be sad if he missed it on my account). Such is life, right?
I'm also looking forward to Thanksgiving. I have a lot to be thankful for this year. Yeah yeah, cliche I know. But I am truly lucky that my brain tumor was benign, that we caught it before I got pregnant, that the neurosurgeon got it all (which is very rare), that I didn't have any on my spine, that I have short term disability, that Rob didn't cheap out on insurance like I wanted him to, that I have family and friends who are supportive, that I have Rob - I don't know how I'd have gotten through this without him.
I am excited about our first anniversary - one week from today. I have no idea what I'm going to get Rob (paper / clock) since I can't get out to the stores and we're kind of broke because of medical bills and my partial pay and stuff...But I'm just glad to be home to celebrate it with him. It's been a crazy first year of marriage - I know he really meant it when he said in sickness and in health. Even though the minister had to prompt him a second time to say "I do". hah
So I'll try and stay positive, and not so "woe is me" even though it's easy to be a drama queen post brain surgery.
