Pseudomeningocele
I guess this has turned into my tumor blog. Which I guess is fitting since it's all I think about anymore.
So I went to see my neurosurgeon today, and turns out I do have a pseudomeningocele, which is a collection of cerebrospinal fluid. I have a grapefruit-sized lump under my head near my right ear, and I can feel fluid (or something "not right") going to the back of my head about an inch from my left ear.
Anyway - the size of this means I have to have surgery. Again.
They need to peel back my scalp and crack open my skull and reposition the skull plate so there aren't any gaps or airholes. Sigh. I know it'll all be fine. I trust my surgeon, I know they're not monkeying with the brain, and this uncomfortable bulge will be gone. But I don't want more staples, I don't want to go under again.
I just want to be back to normal. I want to go to our scheduled shows, have Thanksgiving dinner, and worry about what to get people for Christmas. Not if my spinal fluid leak has burst and I need to rush my ass to Northwestern.
Edited to add the photo of my pseudomeningocele. You can't really see it in the picture - but it contained a pint of fluid and was quite large (at least it was to me!).
